Love.

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies.


Love is so incredibly messy. People around you can't comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can't see. They can't see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you're in love.


Love isn't him calming you down when you yell. It's him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn't him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable.


It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It's not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it's not him caressing your hair and telling you that everything's going to be alright. It's him standing there, admitting he's just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. You've unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another person's hand and said " here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it."


It makes us crazy. It makes us invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross. Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It's about scaring the crap out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it's a lot better than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of difference between feeling " happy " and feeling whole.


Life is a challenge, and so is love. Things never come easy in life; if they do, memories are rare, suffering won't get you through the tough times, there's nothing to look back on. There's no mistakes that you learn from. In the end, it's all worth it.

Love,

Steph♥ 

我，想家了。

I miss home, whenever I fall sick....



Love,
  Steph♥  

Titanic

Titanic is classic and irreplaceable. A film produced by heart will always deliver treasures to its audience,no matter after how many 15 years. It is just amazing. The second time to see this film after 15 years still made me cry. It touched me so deeply.

I cried in like a million different parts. I start crying from the moment Titanic hits the iceberg and starts to sink. I cried

- when everyone is running for dear life

- when the father telling his little girls" its goodbye for only a little while " and the shot of them waving up at him

- when Rose gets in the lifeboat and she's staring up at Jack and he's looking down with tears in his eyes

- when Rose jumped back to be reunited with Jack

- when the woman with her newborn baby are seen dead in the ocean

- when the red-haired Irish woman is putting her children to bed, knowing they're going to die

- when the old couple laying in bed together cuddled up as the water started coming in

I cried on and off during the last hour of the movie. I cried very hard when Jack said " winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it bought me to you.... You must do this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise. 

Titanic still is one of the greatest movie ever produced ! After so many years, Titanic still has not lost what made it such a success. The best movie in the world ! 

Love,
Steph ♥ 

Beautiful People

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.


Love,
Steph ♥